Waiting.

How to start the day... Last year I was getting up early (read: 4:00 AM early!) most mornings and putting some hours of work in toward either my amateur fantasy novel or my writer's blog. It was gratifying at first, but with my poor health, busy young (and also sick) family, as well as my noble attempt at being a runner, I burned out. It's what I do. Today I'm facing a decision. My children have been healthy and amazingly sleeping past 8:00 AM most days, I'm feeling energized and ready to start getting up early again, and I have this nice little blog. But I keep putting off making a habit of getting up to write. One, I'm afraid of burnout, and two, I only want to do what is upright and motivated by a truly god-fearing heart. And so I wait. Do I write to please men or God? Do I serve my family to please them or to do what is right in the eyes of my Father? Do I get up early to prove that I am great or to prepare my heart for a day of service and in so doing prove that God is great? Galatians 1:10 says "For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ." But I am a servant of Christ, and so, again, I wait. Do stay tuned.

Mothers

After two months away from the blog, I logged in today with every intention of changing everything. Again.

::twitch::

How many of you were with me for last year's blogging journey? A few of you, I know.

And how many times did my layout, theme, even NAME change? Several. Yes, several times each.

That is because I have never liked stagnancy. I'm so cautious not to become stagnant that this behavioral quirk masquerades as a freaky irrational fear.

::twitch::

Scratch that.

What I've really come here to talk about today is humility.

Love.

Forgiveness.

Repentance.

Servitude.

This blog was never supposed to just be about food. It's so hard to know how to communicate how God has used a food journey to draw me nearer to him. To teach me humility. To show me his forgiveness. To give me practice forgiving others. Etc. I've been disappointed with my meager efforts at explaining it in the past. But I'm up for trying again. In fact I'm excited to.

So lets try that sentence again: That is because I have never liked stagnancy. When I was a kid I judged my mother for being boring. I swore to never be boring.

I swore to never be boring.

::twitch::

Have you ever had to break down an old old vow? Down to it's toxic root?

It is impossible without Jesus.

But when Jesus intercedes for us, the result is... sweet. Sweet humility. Many many sweet things.

(Do you know that Jesus prays to the father for you? He does! Isn't that good news?)

THAT is what this blog is about. Jesus. And mothers.

I'm going to talk about forgiving people (especially mothers) and letting them off the hook. About being unafraid to resemble your mother - having no expectation that you will ever be the same as her (whether you see that as positive or negative) About seeing your mother through new eyes and, for those of us who have children, actually learning from our mothers.

Learning from MY mother.

So are you starting to understand why I haven't changed the layout today?

Yes, it's something about realizing I don't have to twitch. I'm not crazy and neither am I boring. My mother isn't boring. The vow is dead and the pain forgiven. Jesus has set me free from my debt to all the years I've spent in sin.

From now on if I change something I hope it will be because I want to. Not because I hate stagnancy with a virulent and wrathful justice. I don't.

I hate sin.

Week #2: a different sort of meal plan

I pulled a muscle in my next/shoulder this week, tilling the garden soil. Yesterday I could barely move - today's hardly better. I see I have an opportunity to demonstrate a more casual meal plan style: one that is simpler to prepare, but, unfortunately, does not always work so smoothly by the end of the week.


Here's what I've done:

• Kept an ongoing list throughout the week of the items I was running out of

• Jotted down seven dinner ideas (no order):
• Chicken noodle soup
• Shellfish dinner ala Paul ;)
• French Onion Soup
• Leftover soups w/sandwiches
• Breakfast Dinner
• Pho
• Chicken and Potatoes

• Ran to the store between preschool and lunch and picked up basics etc:
• items I was running out of
• items needed for those seven dinners
• a few seasonal veggies
• extra butter for winter (butter from pastured cows is only high in Vit.s A and D while the grass is green, so buy now and freeze!) 
• local garlic to get us through the winter
• extra coconut oil and cod liver oil for the coming flu season

I spent a grand total of $180, much of which will go into the winter months (the obvious things, as well as several jars of soup which I freeze each time I make a pot.)

Thanks for tuning in! With my arm the way it is, I may have a bit of a slow week - bear with me!

The next post will be a recipe, I promise! 








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Suffering

I only missed three after-meal wash-ups but somehow the line-up of scum-stuck, smeared and half-scraped dishes managed to turn two counter-top corners, fill the sink, and even cover the greasy stovetop. 

Suffering.

Tonight I suffered through two hours of dish-washing-while-parenting. 

Why do we suffer?

I don't know. But, after another two hours {this time not suffering} with my nose stuck in my Bible, I've emerged with a little wisdom on the subject. I want to give it to you as it came to me, so that you may find the truth for yourself and go to your own Bible to seek further proof, insight and questions. 

Ecclesiastes 5:18

Behold, what I have seen to be good and fitting is to eat and drink and find enjoyment in all the toil with which one toils under the sun the few days of his life that God has given him, for this is his lot.

Ecclesiastes 4:4

Then I saw that all toil and all skill in work come from a man's envy of his neighbor. This also is vanity and a striving after the wind.

Psalm 32:7

You are a hiding place for me;

you preserve me from trouble;

you surround me with shouts of deliverance. Selah

Psalm 119:143

Trouble and anguish have found me out, but your commandments are my delight.

2 Corinthians 4:17

For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison.

Galatians 5:1

For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery.

Galatians 5:13

For you were called to freedom, brothers. Only do not use your freedom as an opportunity for the flesh, but through love serve one another.

Hebrews 12:15

See to it that no one fails to obtain the grace of God; that no "root of bitterness" springs up and causes trouble, and by it many become defiled.

1 Peter 2:16

Live as people who are free, not using your freedom as a cover-up for evil, but living as servants of God.

Romans 6:22

But now that you have been set free from sin and have become slaves of God, the fruit you get leads to sanctification and its end, eternal life. 

What are you a slave to? 

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Intermission

First of all, if you're not following my doings on facebook, head on over there and click "like." I'm still climbing up the steep learning precipitous mountain curve, and haven't yet found the balance between blog and distinctly-more-casual page, but for the time being the facebook page is really where the action is. Info on blog, daily activities on page. At least for now.  

Speaking of which, I have a few questions.

1. where are you at in your food journey, and can I help with anything?
2. what about this blog has grabbed your attention?
3. are you more interested in stories and testimonies or recipes?
4. ...or is it general homemaking skills and inspiration that you seek?

For the last year and a half I've been writing fiction. I love doing so, but never in my writing life, until now, have I felt like such an endless fount of words! I have one million things I want to say and accomplish on this blog but I feel I am losing your attention because I'm trying to get it all out at once.

Your input really helps. But even without it, I will eventually get said what needs to get said and do what needs to be done. Just promise me, whether it's now or later, if you are looking for something specific from me, please don't let the request go unknown. 

My only dream for this site is to serve-up mounded-and-dripping-over platefuls of Encouragement with Inspiration Sauce. 

And what's in it for me?

1. community
2. increasing accessibility {due to growing demand} of local whole foods
3. the joy that comes from sharing good things

.                                                                                                                                                                 .

Now... some photos from our week...

 My kids and their smoothies:


Blend:

• One can whole coconut milk (or *yoghurt!)

• One handful frozen fruit

• Two farm-fresh egg yolks

• Generous dash maple syrup

• Optional banana

*if using yoghurt, add 1 Tbs melted coconut oil  :)

                                                                                  

An easy old fashioned Meal:


Needed:

• Boiled young potatoes with butter

• Natural savory sausages

• Steamed cabbage with butter/salt/pepper

• A good ale and a merry heart!!

 This amazing meatball dish:
{from Nourishing Traditions}
Basics:

• 1 lb veal or lamb
• rosemary/onions/garlic
• 1 cup bread crumbs
• 2 eggs
• salt and pepper
• beef stock, red wine, canned tomatoes and spinach for the sauce

A jug of ginger ale:
{Recipe from Eat Fat, Lose Fat}

• 4 Tbs coarsely chopped ginger root
• Juice of 8 limes
• 2 packages kefir powder
• 1 gallon filtered water

Combine ingredients in sterile jar and set on counter, covered, for 48 hours. Lasts for months in the fridge and the taste improves with age!

Lunch at Taco Del Mar:

• Whole pinto beans and rice

• Pico de gallo for me

• Veggie guacamole

      

     =Healthy enough for fast food!

A visit to the local pumpkin patch: the kids learned a lot about goats and lassoing!

Grocery List and Day #1

{Preface}

As a preface to this rather expensive-looking grocery list/pile I feel it necessary to go over once again why I'm making the choices I'm making. I think I've gotten ahead of myself there.

I explained how I had been feeling unwell and unhungry. I explained that changes in my diet have changed how I feel so dramatically that I'm willing to go out and preach my newfound food beliefs. I have linked to other informative sites and I have talked to many of you personally. HOWEVER, what I have not done is answer plainly a few very important questions.

Q: What is "real" food?

A: Food that nourishes - gives you all the bang for your buck. Real food is food whose nutrients are readily accessible for absorption, food that is not diluted, processed or altered, and, very importantly, food that is prepared in a way that scientifically maximizes it's known benefit(s). 

Q: Why is grass-fed meat more "real" than caged or grain fed meat?

A: I know it's expensive, but it really is worth it. It's even worth eating less meat - if you know the meat you do eat comes from animals who were 1) humanely treated, and 2) not fed or injected with harmful chemicals that decrease the quality of the meat and thus the benefit to your body. I encourage you to research this. I was a hardened "cheap meat" fan until I did some serious reading. {When I find the article that officially persuaded me to buck up and buy grass-fed, I will link it here.}

Q: Why buy raw dairy instead of pasteurized/homogenized?

A: This is HUGE. I cannot begin to answer this massive question. It's a case of absorption again. It's a case of living food as opposed to killed food. It's a case of vital enzymes. If you're not yet convinced to buy raw dairy, please read everything you can. The information is particularly accessible right now because we the people are shouting out to the legislatures across North America to legalize this god-given food in not some, but all the states and provinces. {Plus it tastes better} ;)

Q: Finally, why {oh why??} spend more $$ on less food?

A: Because it's REAL food. Hypothetically, a handful of properly prepared nuts and one slice of raw cheese will give you the same nutrients {and in a far more absorbable form, no less} than three bowls of breakfast cereal with pasteurized milk. Another example: a piece of naturally soured bread with pastured butter is a filling and highly nutritious snack, whereas three pieces of cheeper white bread with a butter substitute might be casually added to the side of a big dinner, but - sadly - add nothing in either satisfaction or nutrition. I want every bite to count. It's about fueling the cells AND pleasing the pallet, not just the latter. 

Now I have a question for you: Would you rather your dollars be spent on inexpensive foods that you eat a lot of and get little benefit from, or would you rather they be spent on carefully selected REAL foods - 100% of which are proven, life-supporting, energy-giving super foods? 

I guess it's public now what I've chosen!  ;)

Grocery List for Meal Plan #1

Cultured pasture butter                             Cabbage                                 Uncured bacon
Cultured cream cheese                            Cantaloupe                             Uncured sandwich meat
Raw cheddar                                              Pears                                       Beef bones for stock
2 dozen eggs                                              Shallots                                  Ground veal
Parmesan block                                         Huge bag of carrots              Chicken sausages
Mixed fresh nuts                                         Cilantro                                   Smoked salmon piece
2 loaves of sourdough                              Spinach                                   2lbs stew beef
Olive oil                                                       Onions                                   Canned tuna {no soy}
Organic raw honey                                    Raisins                                    Coconut milk
Slivered almonds                                      Apricot/coconut sticks               
Recycled aluminum foil                           Yukon gold potatoes                BULK:
Recycled sponges                                                                                    Popcorn
Borax                                                                                                      Yellow split peas
Scrumpy's hard cider                                                                                Black/white beans


GRAND TOTAL SPENT: $150.95






In addition to the foods I bought today I have the basket pictured below which is full of seasonal goodies that I picked up over the last few weeks whenever I found a good sale. I'll be using a lot of these this week. Also, please refer to this post if you'd like to know more about the staples that make cooking simple and nutritious - whether you have potatoes or lamb on hand! 

Meal Plan #1

I've tried to be both exhaustive and realistic with this. Maybe that wasn't the best idea.

Exhaustive in that it lists every meal I need to make this week, and realistic in that I didn't include the little details like the fact that I'll be serving hard apple cider with our sausage dinner. Not a good idea because the end result is confusing. 

I'm forced to admit my own room for improvement.

But for today, and for the sake of just getting on with things, I'll leave you with this:

it's for 8 days because I make the plan on Mondays but shop on Tuesdays

This is an unusually pricey meal plan {meat-heavy}

I did this because it's a little easier to demonstrate some basic concepts

Next week I will demonstrate more money-saving techniques {like making sandwich meat}

I  don't think I'll continue to list breakfasts and lunches

Does anyone else make their husband's lunches all week?

I want to talk about lunches - but apart from meal planning. any takers?

I don't want to be old-fashioned 'cause it's quaint, but I do kind of want to eat how they did in renaissance Europe. Oh, gee do I mean that? I'm not sure. But I want to try eating porridge every morning, dry bread with fermented ale for a farmers snack and hearty venison and potato stew for supper. Maybe I'll try it out...

Oh, and have I made it clear that I'm eating seasonally? 

HERE:

{I promise to improve my handwriting} 

 

Yeah...

Those dinners again are:

• Spaghetti squash with marinara sauce
• Sausages and sauerkraut
• Veal meatballs with yoghurt, dosas and beats
• French onion soup with cheese and bread
• Beef stew {actually planning boeuf bourguignon}
• Leftovers or dinner at Mimi's
• Potatoes Anna and eggs {for me and the kids}
• Black bean soup

Questions? I love them! I'm off to preschool and the grocery store, but when I return... let's get to work!